woke up crying

last night, 3am i went to bed... right after i fell asleep, i had a dream and i woke up in tears..

it wasn't a sad dream or a nightmare (mayb it is), nobody died or anything...

i dun really remember the whole thing but just roughly... so, the story goes like this..

there was a group of ppl, which were me and a few of my college buddies talking to each other bout the problems we are facing now..

some talked about their relationship, some talked about their family problem, some talked about their college life and etc etc....

the weird thing is when we mentioned about the hard time, the pressure, the stressness, the sleepless nightssSSS, the tiredness and the rushing that we had to deal with in order to finish up our assignment on time, most of us cried... (what the!!)

then i woke up, crying..... i couldn't stop and cried even harder...

so, what happen?? am i too stress or wat???

i miss...

i miss sleeping for long hour

(maximum sleeping time is 5 hours and minimum is 1 hour in a day for bout 1 month plus)

i miss waking up without any alarm set

(have to set alarm everytime before sleep)

i miss cooking for myself

(didnt cook for loooooooooooong time already)

i miss shopping

(never shop after CNY)

i miss trips

(haih!!)

i miss going out to hunt for nice food

(always go out cincai eat just to fill up the stomach)

i miss watching movies in the cinema

(my last movie was Little Big Soldier)

i miss watching dramas when im free

(longest period for not watching any new dramas)

i miss yum cha session with friends

(stay at home drink coffee and Red bull got lah)

i miss HOLIDAYS

(need no to say more... everyone LOVES HOLIDAYS)

# special thanks to KBU International College, BA(HONS) Interior Architecture and Design course for giving me tons of assignment, projects and homeworkS..

NEVER ending workloadsssss!!

stress happy doing assignments~

Grandma~!

life is so unpredictable.... my grandma passed away this morning at 8.20am...
God took grandma back too fast...
but i wasn't there with her when her time came...
no chance to say a last goodbye to her...
fortunately, my dad, mom and bro were there with her on her last day...
ahhh!! i still can't believe that she's gone...
she just came back from USA on Monday...
came back for only two days and it happen...
this is too sudden!!!
well, she was old and had problems with her health before...
it's ok that she's gone,
because she did not have to suffer long...

R.I.P GRANDMA~~

your memories would always live on with us...
love you grandma!!!

p/s: will go to KK this Friday for my grandma's funeral on this saturday or sunday(not sure yet)

*Sad*

i got my NTU id and password from Cayenne this evening which i asked her to find for me in my room earlier on...

and checked my Year 1 result just now... do u know wat i get??? its 56.7!! 56.7!!! can u hear me???? its 56.7!!!!!!! OMG!!! my overall result for only 56.7??? i was shocked+heartbreaking+miserable+surprise when i saw these numbers... Seriously!! i never thought i will get that LOW LOW LOW... really!!! huh~!!! i DID work hard for the whole year... only in the last project im not (which carries the highest %) ... coz i was totally fed-up for that "design" (cause of some reasons) ... but not until that low gua.. why why why??? who to blame?? myself for not keeping the 1st design?? or the person who totally changed my whole idea at LAST MINUTE???

urghh!! really really feel very upset and dissapointed of myself right now... i tell myself not to worry about the marks so much coz the important thing is the PROCESS of Learning rite??? (just to comfort myself) its true also but how can i dun worry bout it??? arghh!!! wat can i do..? nasi sudah menjadi bubur~~ just have to work more harder in Year 2...

i still haven't tell my parents bout it... i know my parents will understand the situation but i oso know that they really have high expectation from me!! haih~~ going to dissapoint them this time...